Quite often, I am finding myself overwhelmed with the culture of the LDS church. I am weary of the way people can only seem to find fault with the church. I am weary of hearing of people leaving the church. I am weary of people complaining about the church. I am weary of the cultural divide. I am weary of hearing more negativity about the church than good stuff. There is plenty of good stuff, it's just not as fun to talk about. All of the negativity makes me feel so sad, hopeless and dark. The gospel is such good news! Why is it that all I seem to hear is bad stuff? Am I just reading the wrong stuff? Am I just talking to the wrong people? If I am not hearing about how horrible girls camp is, I am hearing about modesty opinions. And if it isn't about how scouting is the worst, it's about how some bishop just got disfellowshipped. I feel like it's becoming less cool to dedicate yourself more to the gospel. To try harder and hold yourself to a higher standard. I NEED SOME GOOD NEWS! I NEED SOMETHING POSITIVE! Anyone else feel me on this?
I love the gospel of Jesus Christ. I love being apart of the Mormon church. I love that I can go to the temple, pay my tithing, take my son to scouts, have gone to girl's camp, teach my primary class and all the good stuff that comes with it. I love the leaders of my church and I love that they talk to God. I really believe that they do. I want to feel this happy about my church all the time, but sometimes it is hard to. I too often get caught up in other's opinions and ideas. And they aren't necessarily bad. There is great discussions to be had. But I believe there is a fine line, at least for me.
So for me, I am making a new commitment. I am not going to talk negatively about my faith anymore. I want to worship more deeply. I am just going to look for the good. Call me Pollyanna if you want. I am not going to tell you what to do, but maybe join me. Let's look for the good and then pray to Heavenly Father about the bad. Let's ask His opinion, not Facebook's.
*Even I am confused about what I just wrote. Maybe you can comment and help me make sense of it.